moved.

2005-12-25T20:21:00.000+08:00

No statement is true if all there is to support it are superficial and ilogical beliefs. And its always such ignorance which blinds people to think in prejudicial, stereotypical ways. For example: Let's say people think and DO NOT KNOW FOR A FACT that more girls than boys do a certain sport, does it make it a girl sport? No it doesn't. Why? Because IF it is in fact a girl's sport, there'd be NO guys doing it. Like lets say girls tend to do better in language subjects than guys. Does it make language subjects GIRL subjects? Nope. It caters to both sexes. And if you know hardly anything about a certain thing, its pointless to keep saying something about it if you have NOTHING, i repeat NOTHING to back it up. The reason i mentioned above, is purely superficial. Ilogical and shallow. Insistence in something being true will not make that belief of yours true. Its just like staring a hungry lion in the face and keep shouting at it, "LIONS DON'T EAT MEAT!". Get my point? Well if you don't, it explains why all your reasons have no depth.
oh hey, its only oNe ReAsOn. Yea and THAT is true.

Note from the author: This is the first time i actually use so many words in caps lock in a single post. I guess i've just lots of stuff to emphasise. And if this post ain't enough, i guess i'll always be able to think of something else. =) Oh and this post refers to NO ONE specifically. Like i said before, no one is that lucky to get special mention on my blog, especially not on Christmas! [ I don't see what the relevance is but who cares. ] Anyway, just wanna say that i'm absolutely! in the mood to criticise people. I'm not being mean, just firm in my beliefs. *Smiles a really big smile which looks kinda sarcastic*.

2005-12-23T21:33:00.000+08:00

Right. The inside of my ear, somewhere near the eardrum, hurts like hell. I've got no idea, but it just really hurts. Panadol didn't exactly solve the problem but at least it made it err .. less worse. Okay so since the inside of my ear's killing me, ima make this post short and sweet. Here goes. So whats with people and their fixed mindsets, prejudices and stereotypical behaviour. Now why am i typing this, looks like i'm about to piss someone off but i guess i don't really care. Anyway, whats with SOME people and their unhealthy obsession of thinking a certain way just because of their own ignorance. One example: If anyone thinks that gymnastics is a girl's sport, feel free to debate with me online if you see me online. For anyone and everyone's information, it is NOT a girl's sport. I don't see how it can in any way be a girl's sport. Oh you mean wearing a leotard during competition is "girl like". Lemme tell you something, that has completely NO relevance at all. If you've watched the olympics, you'll know that gymnastics is an incredible sport. So right, there ya have it. That's about all i'm gonna say .. in no mood to offend a million and one people tonight by criticising them on mindsets, prejudices and stereotyping.

[ This post does not refer specifically to anyone. So to anyone who's reading this and think that this may be up because of you, forget it, you're not that lucky that i'd dedicate an entire post to you. That hardly happens, unless i'm real upset about something or real happy. And don't think that the only person i ever think of is you. If anyone is offended, don't worry, its not all about you. ]

2005-12-12T22:53:00.000+08:00

Everytime i fail to post regularly, you can always blame it on a few reasons. And IF i do post after a while, its mainly because of the decline in visitors or tags. Either way i will still post but right now, i'm posting for the sole reason that i have nothing else better to do. Yep you got that right. So i gotta warn you, prepare yourself for a post that's gonna be as least interesting as its ever gonna get. If you read it halfway and do not wish to continue, its up to you to leave this page, but if you do continue, maybe, just maybe, i might type something interesting. What can i say? It's as good as it gets. Okay now i'm gonna make an effort to state why i haven't been posting, i'm not expecting you to understand, neither do i care if anyone thinks these are lousy reasons. They are there simply because i have nothing else better to post about. Firstly, whenever i get hooked on something or am doing something else, i always can't be bothered to take the time to post. Mainly because whatever i do is probably way more interesting. Secondly, NO i am not hooked on anything. YES i am doing something else which to me is much more fun and in a way productive than sitting in this chair and thinking of something to type out. You know, i could just pick someone i saw and just screw [ not literally ] the living crap out of that person by criticising him/her in the best way i possible can. However, that is is plain immature behaviour which i tend to indulge in every now and then for the sole purpose of having some pure harmless fun at the expense of someone else. Harmless to me that is. But you may say that these people haven't done anything wrong. Which is precisely why i'm not criticising anyone now [ because i have no one to criticse ]. The main reason is just that i'm not in the mood, lah. Okay i have one last thing to say before i bore the dimming daylights out of your head. This post has been totally and internally pointless so please do not take offense in anything i've typed out. And just because i enjoy criticising people [ occasionally ] and having fun at their expense, it does NOT make me an asshole.

That's that and its as good as it gets.

2005-12-01T10:49:00.000+08:00

YAY! I've finally found a game to play, so now i guess boredom will no longer be a factor in the playing out of my time here on earth. At least until next year that is. I guess the only reason why i've never managed to find a game is because i only wanna play mmorpgs. Yup, so anyway i'll be going for a pilgrimage to malacca this saturday.

Now playing: Xo - Fall Out Boy

2005-11-24T21:34:00.000+08:00

Yup i just changed my skin again. Looks like i'll be using this one until i can decide on using one which i know i will not change. If you realise that some of the words are in purple, those were left in purple on purpose. They're not mistakes. Right, although this time no one has done anything to influence me in anyway so that i would involuntarily post, i'm still gonna post to ensure the continual survival of this blog. Although i will now admit that a blog is quite pointless. Wait first thing i wanna say to anyone who reads this. If you're now watching everything you're saying on your blog and using censorship even stricter than that of the Singapore Censorship Board, please jump from a G-rating to a R-21 one. You know why? That's because if you want to outrightly criticise someone that you don't like, as long as the comments don't challenge racist or religious beliefs, i guess you're safe. Right, no one can sue you because you think someone else is an asshole. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions. If you wanna criticise your teachers .. maybe you might wanna think twice on that one. Why? Because you're criticising a TEACHER. Not that its a big deal but hey, adults will always be adults if you get what i mean (no offence to my parents if you're reading this). For greater detail don't be shy to ask me. Yup. I guess that's all i'm gonna type out for now, the screwed elbow's starting to hurt ..

i don't care if people call me a Jesus Freak.

- Jesus Freak by dc Talk

2005-11-19T21:42:00.000+08:00

I'm only doing this because aloy told me to. Anyway its in a way a good thing since now i've got something to post about. Ha-ha.

1) post 5 weird or random facts.

2) at the end,write 5 people's name, the people who you want to do this quiz next. then tag in their blog to leave them a note to tell them to see your blog.

Okay here goes. Facts.

[1]I can't stand malay kids who sing in public and wreck people's bikes.

[2]I think Polaris by Jimmy Eat World is a good song.

[3]The screw in my arm is staying there for as long as it'll stay there.

[4]I'm a virgin.

[5]My mouse moves on its own and my keyboard types on its own.

5 people:
Eugene
Edgar
Mark Goh
Aloy
[ anyone else who wants to do this ]

P.S. please leave a note if you want a card for christmas.

2005-11-17T21:04:00.000+08:00

Okay. Whats the point in being emo when everything that's gonna be said is so cliched anyway? Its like, everytime someone is sad, angry, heart-broken or going through whatever emotion you can think of, everything they say has existed for as long as man has invented the English. Okay one famous example (i don't like this one but since almost everyone knows it and it hurts my ear to hear this): i'm slipping off the edge, i'm hanging by a thread. You know why is sounds so familiar? That's cuz its cliched. Can't they say something like .. Everytime i try to kill you i can't do it because i want you to live longer. So that when you die, you have more to lose. Okay the "phrases" have no significant relevance to each other but i just wanna state my point. Yup that's all. That's why i hate simple plan. No offence to all simple plan fans out there. If you want a good emo band with strong feelings in their lyrics, i'd recommend Brand New. It might take you sometime to like their music though .. but you can try. Its definitely a nice transition into more mature lyrics, instead of singing about teen angst, teen conflicts, teen .. stuff. All it means that its time to move on to a different genre. You don't have to listen to me if you don't want to, i'm not forcing you. With that .. i guess i bettet get outta here before i offend anyone.

The world's most amazing car chase:

"Stop."

"Okay."

Now THAT'S amazing.

2005-11-14T22:54:00.000+08:00

Was my previous post emo? Yes. Am i always like that? No. Did it creep me out? Yes. Was it all fake? No. I guess i meant every word which is why it turned out so emo. Okay that doesn't matter, that's all i'm gonna say tonight. Oh yea one more thing, i should listen to more hillsongs.

ciao.

2005-11-13T22:22:00.000+08:00

Right now, i am in NO mood to post but i shall anyway. (I'm not blaming anyone for this, i could have just waited to another day to post.) Anyway, too bad if all i can get out of me is a lousy post, as i said, i'm in no mood. That's because right now i'm feeling like shit. Do you know what its like when someone breaks a promise he/she makes? It feels horrible right? Feels like you've been betrayed. But sometimes, people break their promises and fail to do things and they don't do so intentionally. These things happen and when someone breaks a promise, have you ever looked at the situation from his/her perspective before making crude and unfair accusations? I doubt it. I guess at one time or another, such things do happen. Now i'll try to tell you what its like. Its incredibly horrible to not be able to live up to your word. I'm not trying to get emo or anything. Its even worse when you break a promise almost intentionally. Especially when the person you promised has given so much, so much you would never be able to repay. NEVER. That's why i feel like shit. I guess its my fault such things happen, it is my fault. Well, two main points which i'm trying to emphasise. First, try to live up to your word. Secondly, next time when something bad happens between you and someone else, try to look at the situation from the person's perspective. This is how misunderstandings can be avoided. Yep.

When i said that i'd sing you more than a song

I guess i meant it

Now that my own reflection shows my own unworthiness

I think

No amount of apologies would ever be enough

But then again

I'm so sorry ..

2005-11-03T22:45:00.000+08:00

back on the sixth. not like anyone's gonna miss me. yeap.

2005-10-31T20:04:00.000+08:00

I just kinda felt the need and want to post this .. Just thought that it'd be a nice thing if i incurred the wrath of half the population of singapore with this post. If you've read my previous posts, i once said that the most interesting kind of life would be when you turn in every direction and everywhere you look, you see someone who wants to kill you. Come to think of it, its actually quite fun. I guess we're all different. =) Right, back to the point. If you've lived long enough you'll know that chio actually means hot BUT BITCHY. If you still don't know then i guess its just ignorance. But then again, even if you do know, you'll still use it because all your friends use it so next time don't complain about lack of freedom. You're restricting yourself because of peer influence. The day everyone throws this peer influence shit down the drain, the world will be a better place. Trust me when i say that peer influence has ruined lives. Right so hopefully next time, think twice before you decide if you're gonna call a girl hot or chio. Pretty and hot both have significant difference in case you didn't know. Go figure.

2005-10-28T19:58:00.000+08:00

This is my second post today but probably because i'm so bored today. If you're interested, you might wanna read it, if you're lazy, you might still wanna read because i assure you, its very short. Right now, i'm working on 3 different layouts but everytime i open them in photoshop i always get too bored to do anything, so i guess my current layout is proabably gonna stick for quite sometime. Don't worry, no one's gonna get hurt in the process of waiting, maybe only me if i kill myself halfway. Chances of that happening are well, it just might happen. Right. Anyway, while most people are talking how their past 2 years with their classes have been like, i think i'm probably not going to do the same thing. Honestly, i don't feel a sense of loss at all. This does not mean that our class had no unity. All it means that we were probably so united that i know that the class breaking up is not the end of us. Its not. Right? The only thing i will stress on is this: Next year, after everyone has gone to different classes, do not ignore one another when we see each other. I remember how some people just failed to recognise others after achieving something in life and moving on to secondary school. To me, you've achieved nothing. One hint, you should've gone to RI instead. (i'm not saying this as if RI is a bad place) You would've made everyone's life much happier. So guys remember, don't ignore one another. Some of us are very good at doing much worse things than just ignoring people if it should ever come to that. Unity is one thing. Remembrance is another.

2005-10-28T18:22:00.000+08:00

I seriously can't be bothered to post anymore, so i think soon it will just be pictures and more pictures .. And my random thoughts. Yep. Nothing much and i hope i'll just close this down soon enough. One less thing in life to worry about. Hah. *Forces a laugh*

I had a dream where i was directing this scene

It had you and me

Always crossing paths but never meeting

I want to cherish these movie moments while they last

Because

If we ever see each other

Past memories will relive themselves .

We'd be forced to draw our swords .

Neither of us will die ..

But will this fight ever end ..?

2005-10-25T21:43:00.000+08:00

The lights in my room are out and i'm back from ACE camp. It was SUPER FUN man. I'm now going to describe it in the simplest way possible. F***ing hot. Crazy hill climbing everyday. NO showers. Jungle survival. Hot nights in dry cramp tents. Hot nights in the rain. River crossing in a sewage pond. Powder baths. Raining prickly heat. Canoeing, Abseiling. Prussiking. Orienteering. Fellowship. Powder fights. Cranky people (like me). Powder fights. Good food. Freaky toilets. The Ultimate Pissing Experience.Everything you've just read is as much as i can remember about ACE camp and if i missed out anything, too bad. Go to someone else's blog and see if he has a better memory. Basically, it rocked my socks off. So the conditions were bad and PT probably sucks but you know what i think? This is the kind of treatment SJI guys need to toughen them up. That's why we're not like the other schools. You wanna be different? You don't have to do dumb things to make yourself stand out and let others know that you're different. Its just stupid. If you've gone to ACE, you're different, at least you've been through some shit. This is real damn shit. Now you can tell others that you've gone in and loved it. That's all the difference we will ever need. No need to stand out. One experience. That's all it takes.

Now i can remember

Of all the memories that are ever gonna haunt me

They are no more and once again i can say

That

I'm willing to take my chance

But will i keep to this

Its only for me to decide

Its worth it

Its just another sacrifice .

2005-10-20T21:50:00.000+08:00

Yea so results are out, i could cry about it all i want here but i won't do that. Its pointless. So anyway, i've already got a rough idea where i'm gonna end up next year(did i already mention that in the previous post?) but i won't dwell on it too much .. maybe its just not meant to be. I'll take some consolation in the fact that this curse of mine will be a blessing in disguise. What's this thing about blessings in disguises? Let's just call it hope. =) (..) You know, when something doesn't go your way, its almost natural to pray for an amazing miracle to happen. But, some things or should i say most things, don't just work that way. What you have is already what you have, move on, make the most of it and for all you know, you might excel. Main point is not to give up lah, sounds so cliche right. Cliche as it sounds, the greatest tragedy is that its so true. Right? Right. Bloody rhetorical question. So anyway, i won't pray for a miracle, i'll pray that i get what i think is within my capabilities. Its disappointing but hey, that's not much left that you can do right? Well up till now that is .. Once next year starts, oh well i won't say more. Oh what the shit.

This curse of mine might be a blessing .

But is all these really worth dying for .

As far as it may seem

There's only that much that i can reach for .

I could fail but at least i know that i died trying .

I'd make my last wish

and say that

I wanna die laughing .

2005-10-19T21:18:00.000+08:00

It feels like i've just been sentenced to hang. No wait. It feels like i've been sentenced to hang, but they changed it and decided to use the electric chair instead. Do i feel like dying? No. Do i feel disappointed? Yes. Its called the Great Disappointment. I mean, its like throughout the entire school most people aren't exactly happy. Sec3s aren't exactly having a very pleasant time either and this is most definitely gonna be revolutionary. For me that is. =) So history is history and i guess literature is definitely more appealing. So yea, guys run to full lit with me, but its no guarantee. Hahah. Finals are .. mad. JUST CRAZY! Are they like drilling us for Os. Nevermind, i'm not complaining, everything happens for a reason and its already over. Now after dreading the return of scripts, everyone's gonna dread posting day as much. At least now i know where to start looking from, its rather disappointing but maybe, just maybe its gonna be better.

If i die tonight

Will the course of history be altered .

Will the sun ever rise again .

Will we get to see how this generation dies out .

Does this all really matter .

What if this was all just an illusion

and

Everything you thought you knew was just a lie .

Then i guess

If i died tonight

I'd die laughing

and I'd ..

2005-10-18T16:38:00.000+08:00

Oh my goodness. Why. Two days was nothing.

2005-10-17T21:46:00.000+08:00

It's just amazing how people who have worked their asses off for finals can worry their asses off as well when result day approaches. And those who didn't really studied can't be bothered at all. I guess that's how its supposed to work isn't it? If you didn't study, just forget about doing well, its probably what you deserve. Guess what ..? School ends in like 4 days and i'm off to my holiday. Holiday .. That's if you consider ACE camp a holiday X). I guess it has quite good timing to have the camp almost immediately after results day, then we can drown ourselves during the water activities and not come back for posting day. Yea sure, and land my ass in hell, no thanks. Well i guess its important to just try not to kill ourselves while trying so desperately to understand why we screwed up. Anyway, just one thing, if you know you studied, doesn't really matter if you screw up, because you won't. Trust me, if fate is this cruel, you'd have suffered even more up till now, another failure is probably an everyday occurrence to you. And thats looking on the bright side. HAHAH. Good luck, try to keep your hands of the knives yea? Hahah.

2005-10-15T21:52:00.000+08:00

Okay. I'm running out of things to post and people to criticise, so i decided to put up a picture instead. I got this off deviantArt. Its an amazing picture and if you don't agree with me then you're nuts. The only thing i'm probably upset about is that she's not my .. girlfriend or something. XD

So yea, just look at it and .. move on to someone else's blog. I'm not gonna kill you if you don't tag.

Picture: Flaeyr by shirotsuki from deviantArt

2005-10-14T20:42:00.000+08:00

Bullets for my valentine. Catchy isn't it? So you think it might sound cruel, too bad i think otherwise. Anyway, i thin this so far has been one of my best layout, most of it is original except for the person sitting down and the border design. I'm not that good yet. Right, so i'm gonna address two things first. Number 1: I hereby extend a public apology to kenny if i ever "suan-ed" you too badly on someone else' or my own tagboard. I'm sorry if anything i typed was too offensive. Just note that i didn't mean any of it and they were all meant to be jokes. P.S. its a privilege that you're mentioned on my blog, so be honoured and cherish it while it lasts. Not everyone's this lucky. Number 2: HYO SEOK! My previous post is not refering to you, so don't get me wrong. I never "suan" my friends on my blog. At least i try not to. Only when i'm REALLY upset or when i think someone's behaviour is digusting. You know, everywhere you go there's always someone trying so desperately to display his immaturity. That's life. So yea, its not you lah! P.S. (refer to the other p.s.)

I guess that's all i have to say. Don't shoot people unless its necessary. Its painful, you know. Oh ya, one more thing. There's a song, so if you can afford to be patient, just wait for it to start playing. Its a good so song so its worth waiting for. Just thought i'd let you know. =)

2005-10-12T21:46:00.000+08:00

Your team didn't deserve to lose. Effort was outstanding, that i admit. But look, your sportsmanship was EXCEPTIONALLY OUTSTANDING as well. In fact, so outstanding that it failed to even appear. You deserved to lose, you did and that is my honest opinion. So what you're playing in a good team? Your display of immature behaviour is all it takes to spoil a person's impression of the team. Its good that i know most of them. I don't know you, but at least i know that you can't face a defeat like a man. You've got balls, yea so do it. But do you use them? Apparently not. Is that what the school and your cca has taught you? CCA maybe but school? So what you're fast? Its no big deal. That's because you're not fast enough. You're not good enough. Those who play badly and can take a lost and shake an opponent's hand are the ones who have won. You, you deserve to lose. You're nothing, your behaviour is despicable. Chances of you ever visiting this page is almost 1000 to 1. But if you do, ask if its you, because this might just seem vaguely familiar. If you ask, i'll tell you. Its you. You one heck of a loser.

2005-10-11T21:44:00.000+08:00

Post exam period .. sucks .. big time. No more studying, but its much more boring, honestly. Going through exam papers is no fun. Honestly, its no fun. You look at that screen and you realise how much you've screwed up. Isn't it nice? Yep its really sweet of the school to do that. Anyway, i'm not blaming them. It happens every year. So yea, post exams means TRAINING RESUMES. Oh crap. This is my leat favourite part. My coach is still in ch-China. And its .. Good. Means that i can still lie and cheat my way out of training. No actually, i'm not supposed to train anyway until next year because of my condition. But you see, the thing about china coaches is that, a few broken bones aren't really anything. Just fixed it back into place and bandage it up. Yea sure. You do that, i'll go with the hospital instead. So ya, everyone better go back for training. We'll die together, at least its not so bad. Okay i end with a joke.

There was a boy name J. After he had photocopied some stuff, he double checked every word with the original copy. Smart fella.

-Inspired by www.talkingcock.com

2005-10-10T21:47:00.000+08:00

NO. THIS CANNOT HAPPEN!

See. I posted. Next time don't scold me for not posting. Hahah.

..

2005-10-07T15:52:00.000+08:00

... In a middle of a gunfight, i say we should stand tall and fight. Whilst you stand behind we weigh our chances and you'd rather not. Our contradicting beliefs will be our downfall and you say we cannot win. I say let's try and you say no. Well they're never gonna get me cause' i'm never gonna let this go. He reaches for his gun and i reach for mine .. what're you doing. What are you doing!? Are you just gonna stand there and let us all die. We can't do it no, i wish i could scream in your face but you'd neve listen. I think to myself if i should have even ever trusted you. I have your back but do you have mine? Are we going to let this go and cry and die and say we didn't try? It sounds good but will you, will we!? He draws his metal and i draw mine. I reach for the trigger and he reaches for his. I'm hit, no he hasn't fired yet, you've dragged me down. Its like you swore you'd drag the sunrise down. Does it sound realistic. No. I fire but i hit the wall, he's just as shocked as i am. Looks like we're fighting on the same side now. We cannot win you say, well screw that i say. They're never gonna get me and that's as much as i'll say, if you're not on my side i'll look to the enemy for help. I'm no traitor. You're the one who's not willing to try. Don't say its my fault. It's not!! Are we gonna fight to the end? Like standing before a tsunami are we just gonna let this ruin us? Its not about us, its about them. If you won't listen i won't scream my heart out. To the enemy i'll look, this is no wrong. I won't scream my heart out. Not for you. Its not worth it. ...

2005-10-05T20:38:00.000+08:00

While people are screaming about how their exams are over, i won't dwell on it, since some people have yet to start theirs. It'll only make it worse. So okay. You've seen it in the papers, people get sued for what they post on their blogs. Yes, rascist remarks are wrong, but do you think legal action is really all that necessary? Its not my position to express my views on this so, move on. Students flame their teachers and get suspended. Okay so maybe the students are wrong to do so, but in schools today, criticism from students is hardly ever taken into consideration. Honestly, NO teacher likes to be criticised by a student, especially when the teacher knows for a fact that its so damn true. However, being where i am now has proven me SO wrong and i think this is the only school where teachers are actually willing to hear students out, it rocks, really. So anyway, maybe the student was wrong to post such stuff and my stand here is not that students should be allowed to flame teachers. My point is, HEY. When someone criticises your behaviour, the first thing you do is NOT TO RETALIATE. No, my teacher/mentor once said, when someone puts you down, you don't react. You respond. Only this way can you improve yourself, you don't surround yourself with a fortified defence system to show that you are right. For all you know, you might be the one in the wrong. Second point, jumping to conclusions is always the cause of downfall. Assumption is not proof of fact. Just because you're higher in position and you think in a certain way, it does not mean that you're right. If criticism was widely accepted, the world would be so much better a place, don't you think? So my main point is, if the student had put the message across in much "less aggressive" way, suspension could probably have been avoided. But then again, the ego is always the main culprit. At least most of the time it is, and i've yet to be proven wrong. I hope i don't get into trouble for this.

2005-09-12T21:47:00.000+08:00

I'm stuck. I've got no idea what to post .. hit me with something dammit. Okay, exams start in about 2 weeks and if you're not careful you might realise that its not 2 weeks away but in fact 2 days away when you realise that you're 2 weeks started like .. 12 days ago? Yea so it might be fun trying to rush through all your topics and it might just work or it might not. Either way, exams are still important. Right? Right. So before i actually start writing, one piece of advice before its too late. BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU POST. These two guys just got sent to court and released on $10 000 bail because they posted racist remarks so try not to put anything offensive up .. yea zach this is for you. And everyone else, you ain't that lucky.

One day you wake up and you think to yourself, i have a dream. When i grow up, i want to make lots of money and i will help the poor by donating lots of money to them. Or when i grow up, i want to eradicate all teh baddies in the world by killing them. Surely they can't charge me in court for doing that .. Right? Wrong. So you try to live out this dream, beating up bullies, always being the hero. When you grow up and commit your first murder .. well not really murder since you think you're doing the right thing. You get sentenced to death, try to appeal to the judge to share your beliefs and they judge just thinks you're nuts. Have you ever wondered that you might have a dream and an entire set of beliefs that .. aren't really right? Have you ever realised that it is only your imagination and you have becomed so disillusioned by it that it becomes your own downfall? Your dreams my friend, can always become your demise. So think about it .. dreams aren't always worth living out ..

Or are they?

2005-08-25T21:05:00.000+08:00

Posting on an irregular basis is not a sin. It is not a crime and i cannot and will not be sued in court for not posting. If you have visited my blog and found that i haven't posted, i do NOT apologise. Heheh. Okay so anyway, as you might have realised, its yet another new layout. Kinda had the time to make a new one. Its a simple one so yea .. From now on, i will only post when i feel like it and now i have only 1 major project to get over with before i starte mugging. Yes, i do admit that i'm not one to mug and i'll probably go nuts doing it but does that matter? Actually it does. The pic of the guy holding the gun is quite cool right? It wasn't drawn by me but i wish it was drawn by me but i know i'll never be that good. Maybe i will, probably in about another 50 years. Today, i shall tell you about something my teacher told me a few days ago. There was this university which was holding a major examination for a course in philosphy. Whoa big right? Yea so when the candidates sat down to do the paper, they probably got a shock or maybe did not. They must have done an entire course on that topic. Guess what the question was? Why? No, as in, the question was "Why?". Just one word like that. While everyone started to write page long essays on it .. one person just wrote two words and handed his paper up. He got an A+. Guess what he wrote? Why not.

This is another instance where its another course, i forgot what it was. But the students were asked to describe bravery. This person wrote 3 words and scored an A+. This is it.

~~the girl in my dream, will always be a dream. dreams aren't real.~~

2005-08-14T15:29:00.000+08:00

Okay, just something i thought was worthed posting.

Our Birth is our Opening Balance !

Our Death is our Closing Balance!

Our Prejudiced Views are our Liabilities

Our Creative Ideas are our Assets

Heart is our Current Asset

Soul is our Fixed Asset Brain is our Fixed Deposit

Thinking is our Current Account

Achievements are our Capital Character & Morals,

our Stock-in-Trade Friends are our General Reserves

Values & Behaviour are our Goodwill

Patience is our Interest Earned

Love is our Dividend

Children are our Bonus Issues

Education is Brands / Patents

Knowledge is our Investment

Experience is our Premium Account

The Aim is to Tally the Balance Sheet Accurately.

The Goal is to get the Best Presented Accounts Award.

Some very Good and Very bad things ...

The most destructive habit......................Worry

The greatest Joy...............................Giving

The greatest loss................Loss of self-respect

The most satisfying work...............Helping others

The ugliest personality trait.............Selfishness

The most endangered species.........Dedicated leaders

Our greatest natural resource...............Our youth

The greatest "shot in the arm"..........Encouragement

The greatest problem to overcome.................Fear

The most effective sleeping pill........Peace of mind

The most crippling failure disease............Excuses

The most powerful force in life..................Love

The most dangerous pariah..................A gossiper

The world's most incredible computer........The brain

The worst thing to be without................... Hope

The deadliest weapon.......................The tongue

The two most power-filled words..............."I Can"

The greatest asset..............................Faith

The most worthless emotion..................Self-pity

The most beautiful attire......................SMILE!

The most prized possession................Integrity

The most powerful channel of communication.....Prayer

The most contagious spirit.................Enthusiasm

The most important thing in life..................GOD!

2005-08-10T21:29:00.000+08:00

I'm seriously considering on putting my blog down until the end of FYE. Is that a good idea? Yes. Will anyone be affected? No. Why? There are other blogs to visit. I find that i'm starting to lose inspiration for my posts and sooner or later i'm gonna start posting pure 100% shit to the core rubbish. You wouldn't want that would you? Me neither. Even right now my posts are starting to become deep and meaningless. I'd never post about what happened during my day, my life isn't as interesting as everyone else's. Or maybe we're all the same, just that i don't like to post such stuff, its not my thing. So right now, i have no inspiration and i will end my post right about .. Now.

2005-08-09T22:42:00.000+08:00

Shadowheart. You should read the book should you ever be able to get your hands on it. Or maybe you could get me to lend it to you though i doubt i'll consent. Anyway, to me its better than any harry potter book, beats them big time. A lot about fantasy, war with magic and stuff .. those kinds of books. But not as much magic as harry potter, so there's kind of a balance. The fighting scenes in the book are well .. brilliant (can't think of a better word). The way they kill is amazing. I think i won't describe it, graphic yet beautiful. Yea that's how i would describe it. You know, life and war would be so much more interesting if not for so much technology. People don't hunt each other anymore, they just fire bombs at each other and shoot each other with guns. Boring right? YES! Very. Okay, right now if you think i'm a sadist. Guess what? You're WRONG! Hahah. So i enjoy graphic scenes in books but i don't have gory fantasies about torturing people in sick, inhumanely ways. Those are for .. other people. Not me. I believe that no one should die a horrible death no matter how bad they are. Even if the killing method is cruel, it should last no longer than 5 seconds. L-o-l ..

I firmly believe that no spa, intergrated resort, first class hotel or $500 000 000 mansion can ever beat standing on the edge of a cliff and overlooking the world as it once was. Undisturbed, uncorrupted, beautiful and untouched. Nature as it is.

~~It is not almost won, it has yet to come.~~

2005-08-04T21:33:00.000+08:00

might take course.

might start training again soon.

might start running soon.

might not start bars till next year.

might not compete next year.

see how pessimistic i am? all mights. NO WILLS. If i could choose the way i should die. I wanna die laughing. I should just laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and suddenly i find that i cannot breathe. Then everything just starts fading .. and fading .. and fading .. And i find myself where i'm destined to be, a new life, a new beginning. Ever knew that every end is a beginning? Well it actually is. Go figure.

2005-08-03T22:01:00.000+08:00

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2005-08-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

Okay firstly i'd like to apologise if your speakers were on and the song on my blog just blew your head off, well its really loud, dunno why. So just turn down the volume of your speakers and it should be fine. So guess what? I usually never put this kind of music on my blog, its usually those not so punk (is that it?) kind of songs. Anyway, i decided that i'll start listening to different kinds of music, instead of isolating myself to a certain genre. Let's just say that i'm happy, for the first time in a long time. =)

What is a true friend? A true friend is someone who will stick with you no matter what kind of situation you're in. He'll sacrifice his life for you if the situation calls for it, no matter what kind of person you are, he'll be loyal to you. As always. That's a true friend right? Yea so anyway, look around you and ask yourself, how many of these people i know are true friends. Well there's only one way to find out. Ask them a few questions, here goes. Would you still be my friend if i told you i have no more money? Would you still be my friend if i told you that i'd need you to help me walk to school EVERYDAY? If someone was going to shoot either you or me, would you sacrifice your life for me? If i told you i was gay, would you still be my friend? If i went to jail, would you still be my friend when i come out?

Well these are just a few that i've thought of, there are definitely more but at least, for now.

~~You don't see him but he's there.~~

2005-08-01T22:17:00.000+08:00

Ben is becoming weirder and weirder. And so is a lot of other people. Hyo Seok suddenly wants to remake his whole character, go look it up on his blog, its kinda scary. Oh yea, the survey is really so damn funny. I laughed till i had tears in my eyes, truly one lame masterpiece. Hahah. Maybe i should do something like that, but then again it wouldn't be original. I've decided that i will not criticise people on my blog anymore. Labelling people is wrong so i should practise what i preach right? So no more criticism, how boring.

I still remember when i was coming back from school one day, and i heard this RGS girl talking. Her voice was .. childishly enthusiastic and excited in a way. Well obviously because she was talking about Harry potty .. or was it potter? Sorry i've kinda started to dislike him a lot. Okay so anyway, she was talking about ron, hermione, harry and draco. Yea draco's an asshole but apparently some people think he's hot. (What's the world coming to!?) Suddenly, she just said, what if harry and draco were gay? You know what i think? I think that would be rather nice. It would completely alter the whole plot and harry might go over to the dark side or harry and draco might collaborate to kill voldie. Cool right? See, love can make you do crazy things. XD

2005-07-31T20:14:00.000+08:00

My head itches. After such a long time of not criticising something or other, i suddenly feel complied to slam someone. Okay its not really someone, if ** reads this, i'm so gonna lose my balls. I've been wondering since last year how come the school gives the track team so much priority over other CCAs. They always seem to be the first to get their track suits before everyone from every other CCA. We get ours a year after our competition, they get theirs on like .. the day of their finals? If they go in and own the competition then its a different thing altogether. But they .. hardly win anything? Well its nothing compared to the other sports. They're still held in such high regard. I'm really pissed that the sec 1 canoeists get their track suits on the day of their finals and we haven't got ours yet but they won the championship and owned the competition so what can i say. Sadly, the same can't be said of the trackers. Actually i have a whole lot of other shit to add but i won't cuz i might lose something really important if someone from track reads this.

What with chain letters? Anyone actually forwarded them and found that they worked? Honestly, i never give a damn about such crap, i've lived a failed love life for 14 years, i can survive another 10. Besides, if i can't take it there's always the option of the brotherhood and priesthood. Maybe that's God's way of calling me to join that vocation. I'll go if i'm called, and i won't have any regrets. So what someone else shares the same aspiration? If everyone thinks like you do, there'll only be one person of every occupation.

~~Till next time, i'll sing a Happy song till its worth it.~~

2005-07-30T20:32:00.000+08:00

Aww .. so sadly, CHIJ drama night is over. I didn't go anyway, missed my chance at a $2 ticket but it doesn't really matter anyway. One friend said that it sucked, another one said that it was okay and that the MCs attracted a lot of attention. No doubt however, that renaissance was better. Its just like someone said, the people come for the people, not to watch. Or maybe both, but mainly for the social factor. Everything seems to be getting kinda dull and boring .. hardly anything interesting has been going on. I'm still thinking about that girl i saw, still trying to remember how she looked like .. the light at the staircase wasn't exactly blazing you know. My frozn finally works, well not exactly mine so anyway, it worked so now i've got something different to play. Sadly, its not d.o.t.a. i'm playing and thank goodness it doesn't work, so now i won't get hooked. Hahah. Not playing mapleSEA either .. like my friend said, its a hooker, playing it will get you hooked. If you get what it means you know .. hooker. I've been thinking of auditioning for MC for renaissance when i'm sec4 but i don't know if there will still be in 2007. Hopefully there will be. I'm still worried, like every other sec2, about next year and if we'll get a chance to compete and stuff. Especially me, cuz i'll only have about 6 months to train? Not exactly plenty of time yea? That's all i've got, there are other blogs ya?

2005-07-28T18:21:00.000+08:00

CHIJ drama night. If you think i'm gonna post about it then, sorry to disappoint again. Actually i shouldn't be sorry, you don't have to read this if you don't want to. Okay so the reason why i'm not posting about it is because its not till tomorrow and sadly, i'm not going. It didn't sound exciting enough so i didn't bother getting the ticket which cost 10 dollars .. Renaissance will definitely be a better deal but the next one isn't till 2007. The reason why i mentioned it is because i felt a need to. Well duh. So anyway, my friends and i were walking to the lab for our practical and we saw some of the girls preparing for the performance. Then this friend of mine, behaving like an idiot like always dashed past this girl that was carrying this orange thing. The girl was like stunned and my friends and i were like .. "OI BILL!". Oops, i forgot i'm not supposed to mention names. Okay nevermind, lets just call this guy Bill. So Bill kinda like walked off like nothing happened, probably didn't notice what he'd done. Yea so me, being the failed romantic like always, looked at the girl. Well nothing wrong right? At least it shows i'm not gay. Hmm, how should i put this. Okay plain and simple. She wasn't exactly stunning but the best looking i've seen in a long time. Shit, that took balls to type, took me about 5 seconds to gather enough guts to type that out. So anyway, i looked and .. That's all. Just looked. Well what did you expect me to do? Anyway, she's probably older than me, girls my age aren't usually that tall. Yea okay, so i guess that's the only interesting thing which happened today, i won't post anything else, because if you're a frequenter, you'll know that its not my thing to post about what happened during my day. Its boring. No i'm not putting those people who do so down, its just my personal view. Okay, physics, here i come ..

2005-07-27T17:40:00.000+08:00

I just realised something. My half-life doesn't work. And neither does my blue shift or opposing force. Okay that doesn't really matter .. can play it once i get my new CPU, if i get it. Mine's kinda screwed up now .. no serious problem but, it may be serious. That's as much as i know. So i guess i'll stick to r.o.c. and maybe starcraft for the time being.

Recently i've started to find less and less fault with people .. not really suan-ing anyone on my blog anymore. Maybe the world just doesn't suck that much anymore. Or maybe i've run out of people to criticise. Maybe one day when someone screws up my life, i'll find something more productive to post about, if that's the word for it. Till then, the theory of angels stands firm. o.O

2005-07-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

Suddenly i just feel like playing half-life .. blast the shit out of those alien invaders. Lol. Okay so anyway, i'm still thinking on what i'm gonna post so i'll just build on it as i go along. Alright, life isn't a dream. i can still remember the last time i said that .. kinda like a few months back and i thought to myself, if life isn't a dream, what is it? Well it definitely isn't virtual because its real. You don't put your fingers through the walls, kill the chickens and they just keep coming. Nah that doesn't happen, only in virtual reality does the impossible become real. That's why its VIRTUAL REALity isn't it? So if its not a dream, what is it? I'll tell you what it is. I've said this before and i'll say it again, this is only my view and perception, so if you don't agree, you have NO right to sue me in court. =)

Life is a game. No the game is not virtual reality. Its a game where everyone makes their own rules. Believe it or not, everyone has their own set of rules which is home-made, personalised, ridiculous to a certain extent and often demanding. Okay and God is the umpire. If he thinks you're playing the game wrongly, he'll save you .. Yea he will. Everyone will choose to obey the rules another makes and in this game, looks like we're following the rules of the elders. Well that's how it is isn't it? Think about it .. it could be a real fun game. Too bad i can't think of anymore. Sorrae.

2005-07-24T21:41:00.000+08:00

if you had 500 million dollars what would you do? that's half a bill you're talking about duude. Seriously, what would you do? Buy a new house, a few cars, a skatepark, a private jet, a super yacht, neverland? Charlie's choco factory? Intelligent programming for your home? Everything controlled by a remote and the touch of a button. Sounds like a dream come true doesn't it? But hey, there's lots of things money can do. With half a bill you can get things done for you, get your best friend killed, find out who your girlfriend is having an affair with and torture the shit out of that guy. You could buy a couple of second hand weapons of mass destruction and blow up your neighbour's balcony. Sounds like a whole lotta fun doesn't it? YOU COULD EVEN BUY YOURSELF A NEW LIFE!

Why don't we look at the other side of the picture for a while. The things money can't buy. This may sound cliche but hey, if i could buy these things with money, i would. But then all meaning would be lost. I'd buy myself the best joke in the world and the chance to die laughing. I'd buy a chance to find the little match girl and give her a proper home. I'd use the money to play politics and kick biasness's ass back to the s***hole where it came from. Sounds like a plan? It does. I could give it to the poor. I could but would i? I would. You know i heard somewhere that no matter how much money you give to the poor, it'd never be enough. Where's the truth in that? Good question. I'll probably get my answer in about half a millenium.

2005-07-22T22:54:00.000+08:00

Next year, if possible.

"..."

2005-07-21T21:07:00.000+08:00

Did you see that pic when you entered my blog? Kinda cool right with the screw just screwed into the arm. Know whose arm that is? Its mine. Hahah. That's what i got after my operation, had the screw the bone back cuz it had broken off, so lets just say i got screwed. Crude way of saying it but that's what happened, i got screwed. Okay enough of that. So i finally managed to scan it in so enjoy it while it lasts, until i find something better to put there. Now for me to comment on my own skin, the same routine i repeat everytime i change a template/layout.

I ripped this off blogskins.com actually, looked rather different at first but now i gave it a COMPLETE makeover and now its original. I swear it is, everything's different, links, pictures, words, fonts and yea, its mine now. Copyright infringement? Nah, not anymore.

P.S. its actually called an implant not a screw. heh. XD

2005-07-20T21:04:00.000+08:00

I'm bored and i thought i'd just say this.

Now you get into a relationship that might last only six months, a year or maybe two years. It ain't really that succesful and you guys break up after a while. You get really sad and all that and you move on with life. About 10 years down the road you'll bump into your ex somewhere along the road and you'll laugh and cry and talk. If you're stupid enough the both of you will get drunk and if you're lucky enough, you'll both wake up in the same bed the next morning. That's how it is with a lot of people isn't it?

2005-07-13T09:38:00.000+08:00

okay, so i counted on beating chs and ri to get team gold, but onr thing i didn't count on was to injure myself. we got 2nd anyway, beating ri but if i had taken part, would it have made a difference? probably not. so either way, 2nd is still good, since the "c" div has never gotten past 3rd in previous years. sorry guys, i didn't see it coming. no one did and trust me, if i could have competed, i would have. now i can't do sports till the end of the year. sh!t. i'm just glad it wasn't my head. praise the Lord!

renaissance was great. in the words of a friend, it rocked my socks =) it was rather touching, with the conductor leaving and all that and the mouse antics were .. interesting. the band is good and so what they only git silver in syf? if the syf commitee had seen this performance, gold with honours wouldn't be a challenge - at all. have i said enough? ok maybe i have, need to rest.

Later.

2005-07-05T21:19:00.000+08:00

Hmm i had this really weird dream yesterday and if you think dreaming of a girl isn't weird, well it would be if you were in my situation but at least i'm normal and not dreaming of guys. Okay lets not talk about that, its disgusting. Yea so i dreamt about this girl, nothing happened .. just walk around and talk and then .. no nothing happened. Which is why the dream was weird. You know, now i've actually realised that God does work in mysterious ways. He'll help you in an unexpected way and very often its not a way you'd like but you do get what you want out of it, which is why its good for you. Okay this post is getting too personal so i won't continue .. if you wanna know the full story, come ask me but i won't tell you who i dreamt of. HAH! and guess what? i've got nothing left to post .. kinda lost all my inspiration. tag before you hit someone else's blog; ciao.

2005-06-30T20:33:00.000+08:00

I have my competition in like 2 weeks so guess what!? I'm not ready. Yea so the only chance we have in this year's national's is probably only third placing behind RI and chs but even that seems kinda far away. Anyway, last legion meeting was interesting .. almost fun in some instances and i remember i laughed a lot. My contact work wasn't particularly interesting but anyway, i'll work on it. After that there was this guy who gave us a talk on holiness .. actually for us to be geared towards spiritual formation. Looks like we're matured enough. So we heard about a war that's gonna be fought within us instead of outside against someone. This is the real jihad he said, the real holy war .. to fight against the pricipalities of the world (quote mr shen). Yea so basically it means to dare to defy what binds us to being the person God doesn't want us to be, to recognise the true qualities of a Christian, stand up for what you believe in and all that. Maybe i'm wrong, maybe i'm not. And so, he said we'd need a good elder brother to assist us in this jihad and that elder brother would be Jesus. He'll be like my strongest ally, my nuclear facility, my head of counter-intelligence, my intelligence network, my long-range artillery and surface-to-air missles, my submarines and my biological weapons of mass destruction. With him i shall win this war. But wait, is Jesus going to do it all? No, i'll have to chip in so i'll get the cash. So using this as an almost-humorous example, i guess this is what i'll mission should be, to strive to achieve sainthood and enter the boundary of heaven. Too cheem? i'm free to give a further explanation/elaboration. Ciao~

2005-06-23T10:53:00.000+08:00

Hey, what is love? If you think i'm a heart broken kid and i'm about to rant on and on about my failed love life like some people usually do, i'm sorry to disappoint. Looks like you hit your wrong destination. So some people may get into a relationship and break it up in 3 weeks. sounds typical doesn't it? So it does but sadly, that's not my thing. Hey, i'm 14, got a whole lot of stuff on my mind and the last thing i need is a relationship which is only gonna last 3 weeks: sounds logical right? It is. If you've read most blogs written by some girls( i'm not prejudiced, its a fact), you find a lot talking about a failed relationship, not being able to get over it and stuff like that .. missing the guy and stuff. Ever wondered why you never found that on a guy's blog? That's a good question, let me think about it and i'll get back to you in about 45 months. So you say i don't understand how it feels to be in a relationship for 3 weeks and just break up suddenly. I'll tell you what its like, you've wasted 3 weeks of your life. You can say that you really enjoyed yourself with that guy but guess what? It didn't last. If its not gonna last, give it up, especially a relationship. Oh look how far my criticism has taken me =). I should start writing songs .. hah.

2005-06-20T21:37:00.000+08:00

Ouch. Did you know that your skin tears if it undergoes too much friction? Yea it does, when the first layer comes off, it doesn't bleed, doesn't really hurt. When the second layer comes off, its kinda raw and it really hurts when in comes into contact with water. The third layer tears and know it cuz that's the only layer that blood comes off with. Any other layers further down, well good luck with that. Well i got my second and third layers off today, is it supposed to make me stronger? I dunno. Should it? All that i know is that it hurts whenever i'm trying to reach for a button that's quite far away, hah .. okay. If you haven't read my previous post yet, you should. Its not a joke, they're facts of life. Well something just shot me in the head today or should i say, recently. Anyway, in a religion, we often talk about sacrifice for the faith. Sure you say you'll take a bullet for God, i say that too. I'd never give up my faith even if i was to lose everything in the world. However, if you actually think about it very carefully, do you think you'd be able to do it? I'll make this personal. If i'm to be shot or made to give up everything, i would. But, as i read one of Fred Forsyth's book, this brit says that if he's made to undergo all kinds of torture, he's not sure how much he can take. He has his doubts and so do we. If you're tortured to give up your faith would you? You might think that such a thing would never happen but, you can never be sure can you? So what do you think? Think about it, i still have to convince myself to leave everything at the hands of God. if you think about it carefully enough, it isn't as easy as it sounds. Give up the Lord i won't. It's more complicated than it sounds.

2005-06-19T20:37:00.000+08:00

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope that they panic and give in.

I've learned that no matter how much i care, some people are just assholes.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better have a big willy or huge boobs.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up than you think.

I've learned that you can keep vomitting even if you think you're finished.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities.

I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades, and there had better be a lot of money to take its place!

I've learned that 99% of the time when something isn't working in your house, one of your kids did it.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away.

Since this came from a email, feel free to pass it around. For all you know, something good might happen.

If not - tough shit.

2005-06-18T21:36:00.000+08:00

i'm listening to staind now .. old band? new? fresh from the press? okay that doesn't really matter but since i nearly always try to make my posts as long as possible, i'll bullshit my way to a 2000 word thesis. fine. its not as easy as it sounds, anyway, length isn't really important right? its like you really can't stand this guy, you don't tell him in a 5000 word speech how much you hate and why and what you'd like to do to him. like kick him in the nuts or something and if he says he has steel balls you'd say that you'll use 3000 degree heat on him or something. you don't do that right? there are a million things you can say to him. screw you would be a nice way to start don't you think? or maybe .. okay lets not get into anything worse, this is a family blog! okay maybe its not but my parents read. anyway, i haven't started on what i'm planning to post yet and i nearly always do this. type a whole load of crap and find that i've actually typed quite a lot. FINE! i'll get started. how do you actually find out if you're a sensitive person and haven't lost your human touch to inhumane kinds of torture performed on your pet rat or desensitised by consistent watching of sad movies that you've become immune to human suffering? easy, stab yourself and if you hurt, you're okay. go ahead try that. alright i'm only joking but its a good way if you want. first you think of one day waking up and finding that you're the only one left in the world. You go about your normal life thinking everything's okay and you realise no one's home. Probably left already but when you get out no one's there. Everything's quiet. Considering the fact that you don't lag you quickly realise that you're the only one left in the world. You think of your loved ones and all the things you should have done, what you did before and you start to regret every piece of shit you've thrown at someone else. Its scary. If it is, you're normal. I could type a whole lot more on this but hey, just think about it. I end this, on a freezing note.

2005-06-16T18:13:00.000+08:00

what's with mutts? or is it mats? or mud? whatever. i mean seriously who gives a shit about that name. amazing thing is they actually call each other than and are proud to be given such names. I mean, its like promoting racism against yourself and, who in the right frame of mind would do such a thing? You know who i'm refering to, all those mutt mat mud oh who gives a damn what they're called. okay i'm visibly upset and i'm not gonna take it out on you my wonderful reader, instead i'm gonna tell you a nice long story which may very well LAND ME IN MY GRAVE! well like i always said, you gotta stand up for what you believe in, so here goes. oh by the way, if i die, i want this read at my funeral.

what's the problem with these people? I'm sure you'd like to know as much as i would. Is is just cuz they're malay or do they have a problem with the whole world? Or is it just because they wanna make a statement to the rest of the world and let the world know that they exist. This may very well be the reason but hey, guess what? You'll never be. i think its only the Singaporean malays/muslims who act this way. FYI, if you think i'm criticising the race and religion, I'm Not. That said, why do they have to dress the way they do, act the way they do, say the things they say and try to make themselves noticed? Is it just a statement? First you get the negroes in America calling themselves niggers. they say that to each other and i have nothing against that. Then you get wiggers which are basically white niggers. what's next? Miggers!?

2005-06-12T15:25:00.000+08:00

alright just in case you're thinking the "what goes here!?" and "and here!?" and "what about here!?" are part of the template, i'm proud to say that .. You Are Wrong. hahah .. yes i mean it literally and since i got sick of the old template i decided to just keep the code but scrape it and hence another original presentation thou there is an odd resemblance to the previous one. but does it matter? No. so i mean it literally when i'm wondering what i can put in those blank spaces. coming up with an idea isn't exactly easy is it? okay maybe it is easy but coming up with a GOOD idea isn't that easy. i could just put a picture of a stickman and yes i might if i become desperate after going without. however, it actually looks quite good like that and for all i know and care this might be the way it remains for quite a while. okay so it might be a little plain but at least its better than some multi-coloured blogs with pathetic colour contrasts .. such things do exist you know .. welcome to the real world. i'm refering to both female and male blogs and in case you didn't know, not all guys have their blog black-ed. i could give you an example but for fear of my own life i shan't. have you seen some blogs where every sentence of the post is a different colour ..? i mean, where the **** do you get so much time to do such things? okay i guess you can't answer that ..

2005-06-04T20:05:00.000+08:00

i've been wondering .. i might get punched for posting this but hey, everyone's got to stand up for what he believes in right? okay so punch me if you want, go ahead. here goes. every time i go to a girl's blog there's a part where she'll say she what she doesn't like right? so whenever i look under that section i cannot help but notice this thing or this .. yea thing under that part of the blog which says "backstabbers". sounds familiar. alright. so i don't really understand why they hate backstabbers so much. i mean, it sounds fun .. right? okay so maybe i don't think like a girl or maybe i haven't been backstabbed or maybe i enjoy getting backstabbed or maybe i just have a really high level of tolerance and can take such shit from people or maybe we guys are just different. are we? hey, we're all humans right? right so .. okay maybe we are a little difference. like i said once to my bro and some of my friends, females are the nether race. ever wondered why you don't understand them? that's a reason for you. anyway, here's a piece of advice if you need it, when someone backstabs you, guess what? just dao the person and walk off. no its not that hard after all that shit she/he gave you. its not. seriously. anyways, sorry if i don't think like you do, punch me if you want. go ahead. don't be shy.

2005-05-31T22:20:00.000+08:00

what are girls made of? sugar, spice and everything nice. guess what?

they don't always turn out the way they're expected to be.

what are boys made of? snips and snails and puppy dog tails. guess what?

they don't always turn out the way they're expected to be.

but then again, like i always said, there are the exceptions which form the minority.

if only i could find the exception in a girl .. oh wait, does she even exist?

2005-05-30T21:39:00.000+08:00

i wonder how many people have realised that i changed my blog address and actually bother to click on the link .. it doesn't matter if you don't relink cuz the link is there at my old blog .. besides, the old blog add isn't exactly an eyesore either .. might end up keeping a few blogs. i haven't posted for like umm .. 2,3 or maybe 4 or more days but i guess that's actually convenient for me but you don't have anything interesting to read so .. okay nevermind. been wondering about a few things lately .. the last time i went to church, i couldn't help but notice this person .. not in a good way thou. and then i thought to myself, why do people who are slightly larger like to wear short skirts even though they know they're not attractive? okay no offence here, t'was jes a-wonderin'. one more thing, even assholes deserve a second chance.

2005-05-27T09:21:00.000+08:00

hokay .. i'm in school now and seeing that i have nothing to do, i'll just post something.
hmm .. what if one day you looked around and found that people who you thought you knew have changed so much you never knew who they really were? then i can tell you what its like to lead an exciting life. when you lead an exciting life, its when you turn in every direction and every person whom you see wnats to kill you. sounds fun right?

i wouldn't mind.

2005-05-24T21:17:00.000+08:00

well .. looks like nothing has changed except the blog address. thought of changing it due to some stuff that has been going on. okay, i decided. while other people are gonna post about their life and what happened during their day and take out all their anger and hatred on the poor keyboard, i'm not gonna do that. i don't want people to read about my life but, i want people to know what i think. that's what a blog is for right? okay maybe not but anyway anyhow, i'll post my thoughts here .. if that's not interesting enough, go find someone who experiences a perfect great day everyday of his life and you can read it off your computer screen. Go ahead, i'm not stopping you.

okay so just a thought .. the best part of a relationship isn't the sex. i was thinking about it and i figured that if all you ever sustained a relationship for was because you had a hot wife, then its kinda pointless right? unless you want her for yourself but with this kind of relationship you can't exactly expect her to be loyal to you right?
imagine you call your wife on the phone,"Hey dear, i'm horny. wanna get it on?"
"err .. i'm not exactly in a position to go over and get it on with you .."
"you .. with someone else? i thought you were mine .."
"our relationship is .. all sex. want me to be loyal? this guy's bigger than you"
i'm not being sick here .. chances are it will turn out this way. want that?